What I learned from Christmas 2017
We all have high expectations during Christmas time. I believe there is something wonderfully magical that is in the air during Christmas. Literally anything can happen miracles even. Matter of fact I asked God for perform a miracle again for me like He did two years ago. Two Christmas’s ago a man whom I’ve never met nor talked to you contacted my mother through Facebook and said “ I want to take you or one of your family members back home to be with your family for the Christmas season. All expenses paid.” Mom asked me if I wanted to go I said HECK YES! I hadn’t been home to San Antonio,TX in four years since then and was really home sick. So there I was boarding a plane going home to be with my long missed extended family for that Christmas 2015 season.
Fast forward two years later I asked Papa God for that same thing for me this Christmas season. I prayed, I believed and I actually started packing my luggage. We walk by faith and not by sight right? So what did I learned this Christmas Season?? I learned to share and celebrate other people getting what they wanted for Christmas while what I truly wanted I didn’t get. I learned that it was God’s joy to take me back home two years ago and still His joy to do so again but maybe in a different way. You see Papa God put on my mothers heart to be a blessing to give to widows whom she knows to bless them with gifts. I thought it was a great idea and we did it with the help of The Lord and those women were truly touched not by us but by God. I know if I wasn’t there with mom in getting those boxes wrapped and delivered my mom couldn’t have blessed all the people God wanted to bless so Papa God kept me here. However I was battling this on the inside of me … Will God do it for me? Will He give me my heart’s desire? Have you been there before? Perhaps multiple times… So of course I felt disappointed when I didn’t get it. I had to push through in worship knowing that God LOVES me and IS for me. I had to really cling to that Papa God does NOT have favorites. During this Christmas Season the devil really throwed a curve ball at me that God doesn’t love me that He is blessing others and not me. He is punishing me. Come on somebody I bet you’ve heard that lie before from the enemy. The devil is a punk and all he has is his old bag of tricks but we as women of God we KNOW that no matter what it looks like or feels like we are the BELOVED DAUGHTERS OF GOD! We know the truth about our Father. That He is good and loving. Could God have done it for me again yes He could have but maybe just maybe He wanted for me to be a blessing first then blessed with the desires of my heart. It’s now two days after Christmas and my luggage is still open and packed what makes me still hope? I’ve learned what if God did before He will do again. What God did for another He will do it for me. Again God doesn’t have favorites. God loves His children not all the same but uniquely. Maybe you’re in the same boat as me this Christmas Season. You prayed. You believed and yet you were disappointed. Let me encourage you from one sister to another. God loves you and is for YOU!! He will come through for you. He has never failed and He never will. Let this Christmas season be one of renewed hope and love. If God did it for another He WILL do it for you. You never know how Papa God will surprise you with the desire of your heart. As we both rest in that in The Fathers love the devil loses what he tried to do and furthermore God blesses us with what we wanted and what He all along wanted to give to us and so much so more. In Jesus name AMEN!
